truth isn't out there.
neo, the protagonist in The Matrix trilogy, discovers he is part of a corrupt system who defines his objective reality (fiction) and then follows another piece of fiction, the white rabbit, in this journey he begins to find the truth. during the course of each film, neo is violently stripped of the assumptions he himself has been embedded with. in the third installment, Neo discovers that what he has been looking for doesn't lie outside of him.
it lies within.
over the course of the three narratives, Neo, in his existential angst, attempts to look to those around him and to things outside of him to find what he is looking for. but its in the moment that he realizes he has to die to save humanity from the machines, that he begins to except that the very thing that can make a difference lies inside. in this moment, the Subject realizes that he himself is L'Autre, the Big Other.
the epiphany of Neo lies in the distorted reality of what is outside is really inside, but he has to go from being the signified (concept) to accepting that the world he once lived in was the very place his signifiers were bestowed to him. for Neo to be fully re-constituted he must die to himself.
This is essentially the dangerous premise of Hegel's Night of the World, where the Subject must enter into their own demise to find what is waiting on the other side. a proverbial suicide hinges on us everyday. this is much like the words of Jesus who claimed to be God. in the moment of this obscene incarnation, the God who is the Other now becomes the Subject. truth isn't out there, its in here.
Neo has to discover this.
the only way Neo is able to discover this is entering into a world of fiction. when he begins to pursue the trail of the white rabbit, this is when he begins to enter into the negative space of his own castration. he begins to see that he has been looking in the wrong place for far too long. once he enters into castration he meets the christ-figure in Morpheus. who is also a sort of devil who forces Neo to question his own existence and purpose. he is the incarnation of Neo's castration. Neo needs Morpheus to lead him out of wonderland.
its this wonderland that we in society long for. utopia. shang-ri-la. heaven.
when Neo finally enters into the desert that isn't utopia, he still tries to make it 'home'. during his training with Morpheus, he attempts to see himself from the world he once participated in. his struggle lies in the divorce from the world he was once living in. the hauntological contradiction is that Neo needs the world before to enter into this desert place where he begins to see all the things that have been fabricated for him are mere mirages that existed for self-gain or pleasure.
for us to realize that truth exists within, we too must follow the white rabbit out of this world, into the next. the truth is found by following fiction. as the process of violent deconstitution arises within us, we as the Subject are then brought back into the Mirror Stage to re-discover what lies inside. when we stare at ourselves in the fiction we have become we then are brought into the realization that the jouissance we experienced while in the matrix was a perverse pre-fabrication of what was necessitated as the perversion of jouissance.
to truly experience the radical hospitality in the post-fabricated jouissance, we must enter into the fiction where the source of deconstitution lies to discover what lies beyond it. this search for truth outside of us, is the search for utopia. truth gets treated as if it is the discarnate voice that sits beyond this existence into some existence beyond this one and occasionally speaks to individuals and societies. the fable of utopia strips of our subjectivity and forces us into a fantasy where we strive to live beyond the Subjective realm and enter into the Oz we think exists beyond us.
in the narrative of Neo and Jesus, we are introduced to a post-narrative paradigm that compels us to not merely question our own existenstialism but also has humanity enter the deconstitution of their own subjectivity and perverse need for Othere. when the Subject enters the fiction of the obscene Other, she is forced to question her contextual value.
She is then brought to the same place Neo and Christ were brought to, the place of agalma, where her epiphany doesn't lie in having a house with a husband, or a job, or a paycheck, but lies in the simple truth of being. that its not in her existential angst or segregation of empirical triage but that it lies within her.